2013 Goals – Hebrew

I’ve saved for my final goals post the most challenging one I have this year – getting a handle on Hebrew.  I’ve written before about my challenges with languages in general, and with Hebrew in particular.  Its been a hard road.  In attempting to learn this language I’ve set many a goal, and have failed to meet them.  The reasons for this are two fold.  First, I have no natural facility at language, and frankly, I find the study of it to be drudgery.  I’d much rather run than memorize Hebraic consonant vowel combinations.  Second, I’m busier than I have ever been in my life.  My job gets more demanding by the month.  E and I have moved into a new apartment, and family and friend commitments seem to be multiplying.

It just seems like there hasn’t been the time.  But, as with anything else, if I prioritize this, I’ll find the time.  And learning Hebrew is important to me.  Over the rest of my life, I expect to spend hundreds of hours in synagogue, work with my theoretical someday children in preparation for their bar or bat mitzvah, and take part in scores of Seders.  I’d really like to have some understanding of the language which is central to these events.

So we push on.  Currently I can, if given enough time, sound out many words.  That’s a big improvement over this time last year.  But it is nowhere near enough.  I had hopes of signing up for a Hebrew class this spring, but my work commitments just do not allow for it.  I’m rarely out of work before eight o’clock – night classes are just not going to work.

Perhaps over the summer I’ll be able to find the time for a systematic class, but for now, the goals for the year are three fold – a total number of hours in study; two workbooks completed, and a prayers understood.

An except from the Allepo Codex. Someday, I’ll be reading this.

Hours

In the past I have set unrealistic goals for how much Hebrew I can study a week.  I work a lot, I run a lot, I futz around my new apartment a lot.  All of which doesn’t leave much time for study.  So my new, and I hope manageable goal, is just two hours a week.  Two hours a week times fifty two weeks equals one hundred and four hours.  Even a lazy guy like me can accomplish that.

Books

I’ve almost worked my way all the way through Teach Yourself Hebrew.  Next up – Joseph Anderson’s Prayer Book Hebrew the Easy Way.  Copying out assignments from workbooks is not the ideal way to learn a language, but its what I’ve got right now.

The Shema

In order to test my knowledge and have something to work towards, I need a goal.  As my long term intention is to be able to navigate the High Holiday services, there is no better place to start than with the prayer that is at the center of the liturgy – the Shema.

The three paragraphs of the Shema are the center of Jewish of worship.  Observant Jews say the prayer three times a day.  I’m going to work my way through it this year, focusing on pronunciation and comprehension (not grammar) with the goal of being able to read and understand it by Rosh Hashanah this fall.

Hebrew is by far my biggest personal challenge of the year.  I plan to post about it a lot more.  I realize most readers come to this blog for the fitness posts, but I hope you’ll find the posts about language acquisition to be at least a little diverting.

The Year That Was

About a week ago I was doing a loop around the park when I was passed by a member of my running club.  In the summer of 2011, when I was running strong and setting PRs, he and I were just about the same speed.  Perhaps I was even a little faster.  Now, he was smoking me.

As he cruised past, I thought about what an awful year 2012 has been for my running.  I started the year coming off of an injury and then, like an idiot, I ramped the miles up too quickly and ended up with a case of Achilles Tendonitis so bad I could barely walk.  It took months to get that straightened out.  By the time I was healthy again I was in terrible shape.  I have spent the last four months building up my miles, and bringing down my average pace very, very slowly.  I’m determined this time to be smart, to take my time, and to get through a whole year without a running injury.

All told, I ran 761 miles in 2012 in a total of 124:59:57 hours.  Not a great showing, but at least I can say I learned a lot about myself, and this sport.  I did not set a single PR, in fact, I did not run a single race but I did stick with it, and there is some small consolation in that.

Other than running, my fitness pursuits this year were all over the map.  I dabbled in many different forms of exercise, two of which, body weight training and rock climbing, I put a fair amount of time into and are things I hope to pursue more seriously in the coming year.

Oh, and the Hebrew.  How I wish this language would just work its way into my mind all on its own.  Alas, it continues to torment me and demands more time than I have to give.  I made serious gains in my ability to read the language this year, but my comprehension is still virtually zero.  More work, more hours, and that will change.

This all sounds like a downer, but it isn’t.  I’m finally back in decent shape, running well and finding time here and there for Hebrew study.  While my running was garbage this year, and my other activities and studies did not live up to what I had hoped, my real live, actual, life was pretty fucking awesome.

In January I started at a new firm, which has been challenging and rewarding in ways I never could have imagined.  I have a legit career which is something the twenty year old me could never have imagined.

I also had the time of my life in Turkey and Greece with the love of my life, E, and less than a week ago, we bought an apartment in a building with a gym in the basement.  All in all, life is looking pretty good.  I’m entering the New Year ready to get in some miles, crack open some books, and unpack some boxes.  More on the specifics of what I plan to do in a future post.

A Plan for the Holidays

Eighty hour works weeks, buying a condo, traveling for the holidays. Excuses, excuses, excuses.  E-fucking-nough.  I’ve got to get a regular running and studying routine going, and its got to happen now.  To help that along I’m taking a page from Runners World and doing a little holiday streak challenge.  I’m committing to running and studying Hebrew everyday* from Thanksgiving to New Years Day.

I’ve had a lot of success, and some failure, with run streaks in the past.  When I first got semi-serious about running I developed a run streak which lasted a little over 100 days.  During that streak I set PRs at every distance.  Eventually, I got a nasty case of the flu and ended the streak.  Next time I started a streak, I stubbornly ran while injured just so I could keep the dumb streak alive.  That was stupid and hindered my performance for quite some time.

With this little streak, I’m hoping to find some middle ground.  Since the streak has a set end date, I don’t anticipate injury being an issue.  If it is, I’ll stop.  The point of this is to get back in the swing of running regularly, not to end up injured again.  I’ve been smart and cautious with my training for a while.  Now I think it is time to take it up a notch, to start banking consistent miles, so that I come out stronger and faster in the spring.

The Hebrew study is a more clean cut case of just getting my lazy ass to focus.  Its way past time to make studying a habit and a priority.  There’s really no physical or intellectual downside to studying everyday.  It’s not like I’m going to hurt my brain or something.  I’m just going to have to find the time.  I say it is important to me, now it is time to prove it.

It’s going to be a busy 41 days.   I’m looking forward to it.

Anyone else out there interested in doing a holiday streak? Join me, it’ll be fun.!

*For running, the minimum will be three miles.  For Hebrew, I’ll be studying for at least fifteen minutes everyday, but the total time of study must average out to a half-hour a day over the period of the challenge.  Got that, dork?

A Hebrew Update

In yet another attempt to keep on task regarding my Hebrew study, I’m going to update the study once a week.

It’s been rough, as many of you noted, doing this on my own is difficult.  This week I managed half an hour, bringing my sad, sad total for the year to 35.5 hours.  That means I have to study for 64.5 hours by Monday January 4th to reach the arbitrary goal I set here.  That’s about seven and a half hours a week – a lot more than I’ve been doing so far.

I’ve got the alphabet down, and my ability to sound out words on sight is improving, albeit slowly.  I’m also reading Joel M. Hoffman’s In the Beginning: A Short History of the Hebrew Language.  It has been informative, if difficult for someone with no background in linguistics.  I’ve learn quite a bit about the way Hebrew works as a language, but not surprisingly, the more I learn, the more questions I have.  But not having access to a professor, I’m kind of screwed.  I have family members I could ask, but who wants to talk about Masoretic punctuation at a family party?*  Finding some way to have a structured class like experience in the spring has to be a priority.

Another priority? Consistency.  I have got to get after it on a regular basis, and for sustained periods of time, or I am not going to get anywhere.  Onward.

* It BLEW MY LITTLE GER MIND that, if I understand Hoffman correctly, the vowel symbols in Hebrew originate sometime around 600 C.E. and 800 C.E.  How crazy is that?

 

 

Studying in Public: Keeping My Nose in the Books on the High Holidays

One of the leading scholars of the Dead Sea Scrolls prays at a modern orthodox synagogue I have attended on occasion.*  While he prays, he keeps open before him a number of books – midrashim on the Torah and Talmud, I believe.  When there is a break in the service, he turns to his other books and continues studying.  He doesn’t want to waste a minute.

A rabbi once told me that he would sometimes get annoyed with the custom in many reform and conservative synagogues to call out of page numbers during services.  “Sometimes” he said, “I just want to explore the prayers on my own.”

I kept both these stories in mind this High Holiday season when I made a conscious effort to allow myself to move between being present in the communal aspects of the services, and to take time for myself to practice my Hebrew.  It turned out to be the most fulfilling High Holiday season I’ve had yet.  I’m not saying the leading scholar would have approved, I’m sure he wouldn’t have.  I was lost for much of service.  And I’m not against call about page numbers, I’d be completely lost without it.  But both of these anecdotes speak to having some private time in a public service.  That is what I did this year.  In taking the time to study a bit, as opposed to just sitting there, pretending I knew what was going on, I opened up the mysteries of the language, and thereby of the services, just a little more.

I’ve been going to services for a number of years now, and this was the first time I was able to read any of the Hebrew, albeit much more slowly than the cantor.  Taking time during the prayers to focus on reading it for myself, even if it meant getting stuck far behind the rest of the congregation, allowed me to interact with the text in a new way – as a reader, of sorts, as opposed to merely following the pronunciation half a beat behind my wife.

That said, “reading” Hebrew is a strange thing.  Many Jews who “read” Hebrew aren’t really reading – they’re pronouncing.  They know how to say the words, but they have little understanding of what the words mean.  I am just beginning to reach this stage.  I can pronounce, a little, if by pronunciation you mean sound out the word like a four year old.  Understanding will come, but it will be many High Holidays from now.

Walter Benjamin, studying in public.

*For those who don’t know me, I am not by any stretch modern orthodox.  Also, this story would be far more compelling if I used this scholar’s name, or the name of his shul.  But, unbelievably, the world of Dead Sea Scrolls scholars is insanely catty and has on multiple occasions devolved into insane internet wars.  I would very much like to keep this gentleman, and this blog, out of all that.  Google around if you want to know more, nerd.

A Hebrew Study Plan

While there have been some ups and downs in my fitness training recently, I think all in all things are going well.  My running is pain free, the climbing is getting better, and I’m losing weight.  All good news.  Hebrew study however has been disastrous.  I go on short binges where I am diligent, and then I fall off the wagon.  When I restart, I’ve forgotten so much that I have to retrace the same steps over again.

Why is it that I can be reasonably disciplined in my physical training, but not in my Hebrew study?  Perhaps it is because Hebrew is much harder for me than working out.  I’m no Ryan Hall, but I’ve been working out consistently for a number of years.  Exercise isn’t work to me. I get true pleasure out of a run, even a bad run, and spending time at the climbing gym is like being a kid again.  Honestly, I’d rather be working out than doing just about anything else.  Languages, however, are a different story.  I have moderate dyslexia which infringes on my ability to learn new languages.  I’m also basically tone deaf, which also doesn’t help.  It’s a challenge.  To be half as good at a language as the average person I have to work twice as hard and when I get home from a long day at work, spending time with the Hebrew books is the last thing I want to do.  Still, the study is important to me and I’ve got to knuckle down.  To help get over the initial hurdle of getting the barebones understanding of Hebrew I’ve developed the loose outlines of a plan to take me through the early stages of learning the language.

First, I am going to develop a streak.  When I started running in earnest a number of years ago one trick that kept me going, even though I sucked, and was terribly slow, was a running streak.  If I told myself I had to run every day, then there was no excuse good enough to not run.  As I make the slow recovery from a series of injuries, I’ve at least temporarily given up on running streaks, but the same principle of no excuse ever being good enough, could help me with Hebrew.  If I must study Hebrew everyday, then there is never an excuse good enough to not study.  When I was doing the running streak, the requirement was one mile, with Hebrew, I think I am going to make it fifteen minutes.  Starting tomorrow morning, I am going to begin a streak of studying Hebrew for at least fifteen minutes everyday.  It isn’t much, but it’s a start.

Second, I need to set bench marks.  In running I’m proud when I hit double digit long runs, then thirty miles in a week, then fifty.  One thousand in a year is a reason to celebrate, two thousand is even better.  I need to do something similar with Hebrew.  Record the time spent, and celebrate when I reach key goals like fifty or one hundred hours of study.  As of today, I’ve spent about twenty five hours in Hebrew study.  I am going to set the goal of reaching 100 hours of study by the start of the spring academic term, which, for convenience sake, I am going to peg to Monday, January 14th.  That’s nineteen weeks from now, so I’ll have to average about four hours of study per week, or twelve hours a month.  That’s more than fifteen minutes a day, but with some longer sessions thrown in it is doable.  I’ll need to remind myself of this the next time I want to watch a Giants game instead of getting in the studying.

Come the spring term, it’ll be time to take this up a notch and start learning in a more academic environment, most likely Hebrew I at my alma mater, Brooklyn College.  For now, let’s see how fifteen minutes a day, and twelve hours a month, goes.  Another exercise in getting better; another chance to prove that I’m not a slovenly, lazy, loser.

Numbers 7.9.2012 – 7.15.2012

Numbers

7.9-7.15

Total Hours of Exercise: ~8:30
Running : 11.6 miles in ~1:50
Cycling Time: ~00:00
Strength and Flexibility Time (stretching, lifting and bodyweight work): ~1:30
Climbing ~3:40
Other (hiking) 4.5 miles ~1:30 (5 pound pack)
Hebrew Study Time: ~0:45

Comments:

  • Running is coming along pretty nicely, a little tightness in Achilles, but nothing too bad.
  • Still having difficulty finding the time for Hebrew, I need to be working on it everyday, but when I get home from a 12 hour day at the office, it is the last thing I want to do.
  • My good friend Joe and I are contemplating a totally stupid hiking idea.  More on that later.

 Last Week’s Goals:

  • n/a

This Week’s Goals:

  • Hebrew for at least two hours
  • At least five hours of exercise
  • Run three days for 4.5 miles